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I'll always end up with you"Ronnie" I cry to myself. My best friend .... The only one I could ever love he's in jail and it's my fault if I would've just read the message later.....
2 months later
Craig just told more lies about Ronnie I know he didn't get caught with hereon in prison he's too good for that. He wanted to get sober even before he went to prison . But I just couldn't stay sober because all I thought about was Ronnie and how much I love him.but he hates me and I went to see him in prison and all he said was how useless I am . He is right though I am useless and no one would love a faggot like me....
2 Years later
Ronnie is out of jail now... He is starting a new band 'falling in reverse' he wrote an album it was rather about how much he hated me or how he was sober now. And yet I'm still a druggie. God I should just die . Ronnie said I was going to anyways so why not make it come true.....
I'm going to rehab today . Maybe when I'm sober I can talk to Ronnie again and get back in Escape th
Random poemI think its amazing about how quickly people can change,
how they grow apart into total strangers
how they say there in love one minute,
but it's gone the next
they say they are happy together and it will never change
but then they never want to speak together again
All one ever wants is to find love
but sometimes it never exsist
sp dip what are you hideing chapter 3Craig slams me agaisnst a wall putting his arm around my neck I praticly see the rage in his eyes "why would you tell Stan to break up wih me??!!" he growels "what!" my mind screams but then i remeber....
"you were beating the living hell out of him" i manage to gasp out. that just makes him more angrey he starts punching my face im loosing alot of blood this was going on for atlest ten minutes
I feel myself blacking out.
suddenly the puching stops and i fall to the floor I try to look up but fail miserbly .
soon the blackness overwelms me but i can hear a soft voice calling my name but i just cant force my eyes open................
What south park charcter i amStan:
[ ] You're the normal kid
[x ] You have an older sister
[ ] You often puke
[ ] You have a poofball hat
[ ] One of your parents is a geologist
[x] Your dad can be really stupid/stubborn
[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] You have a lot of talents
[ ] You're Jewish
 You own an ushanka
[ ] You have an adopted sibling
[x] You easily get mad
[ ] Your hair is curly
[ ] You're diabetic
[x] Green and Orange are one of your favorite colors
[ ] One of your parents is a lawyer
 You're fat/big-boned
[ ] You get made fun of because of your body weight
[ ] People make fat jokes about you
[ ] You eat a lot of junk food
[ ] You love acting/dressing like Hitler
[x ] You think Ginger Kids have no souls
[ ] You've once made over 10,000 dollars
 You have a single mother for a reason
[x] You hide your face
[x] You're quiet
 You love boobies
[x] You're such a pervert with a dirty mind
 You have cheesed before
[x] You're poor Almost poor,
I never thought ,CuRedI stand at Evans grave theres nothing i would like to do more than scream but I stay silent I look over at the other goths Henreitta is just in shock not moving gerogie is biting his lip to not cry and Dylan has tears streaming down his face.I feel bad for Dylan he loved Evan and i thought Evan loved him as well even though love is for conformists they were just compatable.I sigh somewhat loudly i dont even know why he did this.
I had joined the goth group about 6 years ago. They only let me in because unlike Stan who had joined them for a while in fourth grade I was a true goth. I had alredy smoked and drank coffe so they knew i wasent going to end up like stan. I push some of my black hair out of my face. I'm trying to find Evan I can speak to the dead when i was a kid it used to terrify me but now it dosent bother me that much. I think Evan is trying to avoied us cause he's gonna get a hell of a lecuture from me. Dylan start sobbing more and i go hug him it's all i can do to help if
sp dip what are you hideing chapter 2Damien is watching me I can feel his eyes on me ever since he saw me reading his jornal he's just been watching me. i want to countine reading but i feel like he will notice and i dont want that. Finally the bell goes and i start walkint home it's very riskey since people always throw stuff at me once i got hit with an cell phone which was really starnge. I still feel eys on me so i pick up my pace a little bit.
I finally get to my adoptive parents house and like usal there not there they only got me because they want the $100 check they get for adopting me. But today im happy their not here the would keep asking me what i was reading and they would keep repeting it because of how drunk they would be. I lye down on my bed until i fall asleep. My alarm starts buzzing very loudly and very anoyylingly I hit the snooze butten i want to go back to sleep but instead i pull my self out of bed and slowly get ready.
By the time im done it's 7:30 so i have a bit of time before i have to leave i
Sp dip What are you hideingA Goth girl walks up to me. This goth girl is damiens sister who went goth sometime around when damien became a popular dick. He beats me up more then any of the other kids ever did. Soon the goth girl is face to face with me i blink before she speaks " I made a copy of damiens jornal" she hands me a black book "ive only read the first few pages but it has magic on it so whenever damien writes sometheing it will apper in the book" " why are you giving this to me Alley??" I'm acutally clueless of why she gave me the book "Because ive tryed to not make him a popuplar asshole but it didnt work so im hopeing maybe you can" with that she walks away back to her little goth group
Shes hopeing i can change damien? No one could change damien. but im curios so i start reading his jornal throughout the day. One page sticks out to me he had written a while after he became popular. "what am i doing with my life? ive became a complete douchebag my own sister became goth because she knows i cant stan
Sp kyleMy name is Kyle Brofloski Im a nerdy ginger jew i get beat up at school even my own boyfriend beats me he tells me he has to keep up with his reputation at the end of the day i feel like im almost dead. The only person i feel like i can trust is Kenny he is always there for me no matter what sometimes i wonder if i was with kenny it would be better. But im scared of stan going after me so i just stay silent.
Sometimes i wonder if death would be better. I dont talk as much as i used to and i barley wiegh a thing because i dont eat to much anymore. If i did more people would go after me. I'm tired and beat when my mom asks were all the brusies come from i just tell her im a clutz if i told her the truth she would probably start a war and i dont want that happing again. For the life of me i cant stop cutting it makes some of the pain go away for a while so i enojoy it i know it sounds strange but i just want to feel something other then hate but id rather feel pain then nothing at all so
K2 confess chapt 6Moments of silence pass the only sound is my now silent sobs. I look over at Star who has a few tears stroling down her face which is very shocking. I'd never thought i'd see Star crying of all people. Stan notcices she crying and pulls her into a hug. Star freezes.
she ushally does this when she has a vishion. She loosens up in a few secounds and realexs. "Cartman" she mutters Footsteps are heard Stan realses Star and Kenny realeses me. Trent walks down with a wooden bat in his hand. Stars eyes widen but shrink within a few moments. he walks to Stan and knocks him out then star then kenny then myself.......
BEEP BEEP BEEP. ugh what is that anoying sound. BEEP BEEP BEEP. Fuck thats anoying i open my eyes im not in the basment any more im in a stark white room "what the fuck??" all the sudden im in a tackle hug. i look down and see Star Stan and kenny hugging me. " how the hell did we get here??" Star laughs " Cartman found our asses and saved us but we were all passed out so it was dif
Levi x Reader |To Make A Man Jealous|You let out an irritated noise, as you watched your boyfriend, Levi, who had a more irked expression than you. You were currently curled up on his couch, your bottom lip stuck out in a pout, not enjoying the fact you weren't getting the attention you craved from him. Levi made no effort to say anything, as he continued hurriedly writing with his quill.
You let out a sigh. Then another, and another. Levi's feline gaze went from his paperwork to you, his eyebrows furrowed together in annoyance.
"(Name), if you're just going to sigh like an idiot, I'd recommend to kindly move off your ass and do something productive." Levi half heartedly grumbled to you, and you took note of his thinning patience.
"Whatever," You replied, doing just that, as you got off his small office couch and went to the door. But before you could open it, you cautiously turned around. Levi's eyes were back on his paperwork, his face just as expressionless as always. An idea popped into your mind, as you slowly stroll
Dawn- (Actor!Levi x Reader) [AU]
*A/N: Listen to the song for sure~ The lyrics of the first part are according to that song!
How long has it been?
The question has an obvious and well tracked answer so Levi doesn’t have to think too hard. Four years and two months. Of course, if you ask anybody what Levi had done in these past four years, there would be no question that he had essentially evolved into an international sensation, propelling forward in his career, topping movie charts, and even exhaling music CDs when a small audience of fans learned he could sing. Singer, predominant actor, and whatever else he happened to be—they advanced to a frightening degree, all originating from one unforgettable decision that created an infinite series of toppling dominoes.
The blue sky is beautiful
but why am I becoming so insignificant and shabby.
As in…you…sacrificed the purity of your
Guardian Angel [Levi x Reader]
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3lWwMHFhnA Please listen to this while you read!)
A throbbing in your head. Heated blood coursing through broken vessels in attempt to revitalize your body. Muscles pinned to the rough surface on which you lay. And pain, an indescribable pain the inflamed upon every breath.
Each sensation your mind detected, and yet, it was still too pinned into the realm of unconsciousness to even fathom your surroundings.
Then, something soft caressed your wounded cheek, light as a feather. It tickled but it was far more desirable than this torture.
Your weakened mind struggled to pull away, but the gravity of your memories succumbed you further into that terrifying darkness. Memories of your final battle at humanity's side sieved through your mind's eye in broken particles; the plastered grins of your foes, screams of your comrades as they faced their deaths, bones crushed by rubble and giant hands, swords digging into thick skin, and red, so much red, so much blood
Dave X Reader
(Y/n) was trying to pay attention to her teacher, but it was hard.
He was just too boring.
The girl yawned and laid her head down, closing her eyes to take a small nap. The teacher wouldn’t notice anyway.
As she was about to fall asleep, she felt something touch her fingertips.
(Y/n) opened her eyes and saw a small note with words written in red, and she knew who it was from.
(Y/n) looked to her side and raised an eyebrow at her friend Dave, who simply pointed to the paper and mouthed ‘for you’.
The girl sighed and picked the note up, reading it.
‘hey (Y/n), ive got a question for you’
(Y/n) sighed yet again and wrote in another small paper, throwing it carefully at Dave who caught it, reading it.
‘What is it? It better be not something about this class ‘cause I’m not paying attention.’
Dave silently chuckled and wrote another note, throwing it at (Y/n).
‘dont worry, its not about that
wanna be my girl
Insecurities-Romano x Reader
Those voices, he knew they didn't speak the truth. He knew you weren't planning on leaving anytime soon...or were you?
He didn't know anymore. Lovino walked over and sat at the table in the kitchen.
"B-Bella, you're not planning on leaving anytime soon, are you?"
You switched your attention from the oven to Lovino, a look of confusion and hurt splattered across your face. "No, why on earth would you ask that, Lovi? Do-Do you want me too?"
That was when he couldn't handle it anymore. Lovino walked over to you, bringing you into a bone crushing embrace, before sinking to the floor.
That was when you heard the sniffling and you felt something wet dripping onto your shoulder blade.
"L-Lovi? H-Hey, what's wrong?" You asked, shocked because you'd never seen your lover so weak.
Then he pulled his head up from your shoulder blade, looking you in the eyes. "I'm sorry, I'm not as good as my brother or that idiota, Antonio. J-just please, don't leave? Ti amo, bella!"
You brought his head b
One Kiss [Patient!Levi x Patient!Reader] [AU]
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5M1L12m7YoM Please listen as you read.)
Your eyes trailed over Levi’s pale, sickly limbs. Needles pierced his exhausted veins, the wires dripping fluid into his body. Tears already soaked the pillow cradling his head. In a few, precious moments, the white room would become emptier, a little colder, a little lonelier. You sighed deeply, gazing back at his pleading, blue-grey eyes, unusual for the normally stoic man. In the short time you spent together in the hospital, you grew a rather unhealthy attachment to each other. You knew your times were short. You both knew of your crippling conditions. But, the heart has always been fickle, longing for things it could never have. You fulfilled each other’s last small wishes.
But, you had yet to grant one more.
The light of the morning illuminated bits of your hair. The springs of the bed creaked as you sank next to him. The pain in his eyes faded away and was replaced with a warm affection. The lov
Same Damn Difference (Drunk!Levi x Reader) 
“I’m going to kill him…” You growled, running down another flight of stairs and dashing out on the main floor to the mess hall. Man, were his promises weak.
Ever since that eventful night, you and Levi had officially started dating, becoming more intimate with each other, and overall just more loving in general. But being the Lance Corporal’s girlfriend had a bit of a disadvantage- he had to constantly be out late at meetings with the monarchy. That left you alone at night, sitting on his bed and waiting for him to come back. He had a fairly decent schedule, coming back home whenever he told you he’d be back. Cuddling soon came after, making up for the time he was out. Tonight wasn’t one of those times.
“I’ll be back around 11:45. This stupid interview will take me a while. Don’t stay up too late.”
RQ: Why him? (Tamaki x Reader)
Kyoya. Kyoya, Kyoya, Kyoya. Why does it always have to be him? Why can't you love me instead? What does he have that I don't? Can't you see? Why can't you see that I love you...
______ sighed as she dabbed the cut on Tamaki's cheek with a cotton, wet with antiseptic. Next, she took out a band-aid from the nurse's drawer and gently placed it over his cut. She then proceeded to clean up the rest of his injuries.
"Tamaki, what's up with you today? It's uncharacteristic of you to get involved in a fight," ______ stated, frowning. She looked at him.
Tamaki sighed as he avoided her gaze. He was in love with her because of her kindness and gentle nature, but it turned out to be a one-sided love when he found out that she has her eyes for Kyoya. It just so happens that Kyoya feels the same way, judging by the look in his dark eyes whenever he talks to or stares at her; not to mention that he would crack a small smile whenever she smiles or laughs around him.
Tamaki couldn't help but fee
Hide and Seek(Yandere!Prussia x Reader)Chapter 2
The next morning, I decided to get up earlier than I usually did. Ludwig was surprised to find me already dressed and ready to go in the kitchen before he was even dressed, but he didn't question it one bit. In fact, he gave an approving nod and left the kitchen to get himself dressed for work. I waited almost patiently for him, but I didn't have enough of it to wait for him to make breakfast, so I just made him toast and said "bon appetite!" as I dragged him to the car. There was no way I was going to be late in meeting my angel.
When we got there, I shot right out of the car, lit a cigarette, and stormed inside the building, Ludwig looking after me with wide eyes as he tried to get his things together. Walking past the receptionist desk, I headed towards the elevator and went up to my office. Once there, I greeted and fed Gilbird, who chirped happily at seeing me, and sat down at my desk to begin with the paperwork. But on the inside, I was feeling a little disappointed. I had expect
Confess k2Kyle just please leave me alone!' shouted kenny ' But kenny please you just have to understand' I sobbed . " i've heard enough Kyle" . That was only an hour ago we are now in school in thrid period and I just cant think stragiht. I cant stop thinking about what happend with kenny;. this is why I never told him how i felt because I knew this was gunna happen. I glare over at my cosin Star She looks nervos and i have no clue why she has always beeen able to see into the futre it was starnge.
She had lived with us for about 6 months because her dad and mother had died. It's not like living with us was any better though my parents had gotten divorced and my mother didn't take it so well She abusies us. The only reson Ike didn't get abusied was because me and Star would make sure he didn't.
My thoughts where disturbed when my phone went off. I looked to see if out teacher Mrs.Spurrel was looking luckily for me she wasen't I looked at my phone the text was from Stan " dude are you
a dangerous hallucinationThe light coming through the window was bright,
much too bright.
Even though my eyes were closed
I could see it-
The skin of my arms prickled,
sweat dripped from my brow.
It was two in the afternoon but…
the sun was setting
through the window facing east.
I should have seen the hutch,
shelves lined with bone china
decorated with delicate leaves and vines.
I was so thirsty
and reaching for cups that should have been there.
Instead I found a billboard of butterflies,
the colors raging
more than any rainbow
I'd ever seen.
Their wings fluttered and flashed
yet somehow they moved in slow motion.
I wanted to stand,
wanted to reach out and touch them but…
I couldn't move,
and yet I laughed
ignoring my dry mouth
and the tingling in my feet.
There was a tempest
on the rise
and in my blood.
A sugar rush disguised
as a riot of butterflies
and they were swarming me.
There was a small vial
of insulin in my pocket
that I nev
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