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I'll always end up with you"Ronnie" I cry to myself. My best friend .... The only one I could ever love he's in jail and it's my fault if I would've just read the message later.....
2 months later
Craig just told more lies about Ronnie I know he didn't get caught with hereon in prison he's too good for that. He wanted to get sober even before he went to prison . But I just couldn't stay sober because all I thought about was Ronnie and how much I love him.but he hates me and I went to see him in prison and all he said was how useless I am . He is right though I am useless and no one would love a faggot like me....
2 Years later
Ronnie is out of jail now... He is starting a new band 'falling in reverse' he wrote an album it was rather about how much he hated me or how he was sober now. And yet I'm still a druggie. God I should just die . Ronnie said I was going to anyways so why not make it come true.....
I'm going to rehab today . Maybe when I'm sober I can talk to Ronnie again and get back in Escape th
Random poemI think its amazing about how quickly people can change,
how they grow apart into total strangers
how they say there in love one minute,
but it's gone the next
they say they are happy together and it will never change
but then they never want to speak together again
All one ever wants is to find love
but sometimes it never exsist
sp dip what are you hideing chapter 3Craig slams me agaisnst a wall putting his arm around my neck I praticly see the rage in his eyes "why would you tell Stan to break up wih me??!!" he growels "what!" my mind screams but then i remeber....
"you were beating the living hell out of him" i manage to gasp out. that just makes him more angrey he starts punching my face im loosing alot of blood this was going on for atlest ten minutes
I feel myself blacking out.
suddenly the puching stops and i fall to the floor I try to look up but fail miserbly .
soon the blackness overwelms me but i can hear a soft voice calling my name but i just cant force my eyes open................
What south park charcter i amStan:
[ ] You're the normal kid
[x ] You have an older sister
[ ] You often puke
[ ] You have a poofball hat
[ ] One of your parents is a geologist
[x] Your dad can be really stupid/stubborn
[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] You have a lot of talents
[ ] You're Jewish
 You own an ushanka
[ ] You have an adopted sibling
[x] You easily get mad
[ ] Your hair is curly
[ ] You're diabetic
[x] Green and Orange are one of your favorite colors
[ ] One of your parents is a lawyer
 You're fat/big-boned
[ ] You get made fun of because of your body weight
[ ] People make fat jokes about you
[ ] You eat a lot of junk food
[ ] You love acting/dressing like Hitler
[x ] You think Ginger Kids have no souls
[ ] You've once made over 10,000 dollars
 You have a single mother for a reason
[x] You hide your face
[x] You're quiet
 You love boobies
[x] You're such a pervert with a dirty mind
 You have cheesed before
[x] You're poor Almost poor,
I never thought ,CuRedI stand at Evans grave theres nothing i would like to do more than scream but I stay silent I look over at the other goths Henreitta is just in shock not moving gerogie is biting his lip to not cry and Dylan has tears streaming down his face.I feel bad for Dylan he loved Evan and i thought Evan loved him as well even though love is for conformists they were just compatable.I sigh somewhat loudly i dont even know why he did this.
I had joined the goth group about 6 years ago. They only let me in because unlike Stan who had joined them for a while in fourth grade I was a true goth. I had alredy smoked and drank coffe so they knew i wasent going to end up like stan. I push some of my black hair out of my face. I'm trying to find Evan I can speak to the dead when i was a kid it used to terrify me but now it dosent bother me that much. I think Evan is trying to avoied us cause he's gonna get a hell of a lecuture from me. Dylan start sobbing more and i go hug him it's all i can do to help if
sp dip what are you hideing chapter 2Damien is watching me I can feel his eyes on me ever since he saw me reading his jornal he's just been watching me. i want to countine reading but i feel like he will notice and i dont want that. Finally the bell goes and i start walkint home it's very riskey since people always throw stuff at me once i got hit with an cell phone which was really starnge. I still feel eys on me so i pick up my pace a little bit.
I finally get to my adoptive parents house and like usal there not there they only got me because they want the $100 check they get for adopting me. But today im happy their not here the would keep asking me what i was reading and they would keep repeting it because of how drunk they would be. I lye down on my bed until i fall asleep. My alarm starts buzzing very loudly and very anoyylingly I hit the snooze butten i want to go back to sleep but instead i pull my self out of bed and slowly get ready.
By the time im done it's 7:30 so i have a bit of time before i have to leave i
Sp dip What are you hideingA Goth girl walks up to me. This goth girl is damiens sister who went goth sometime around when damien became a popular dick. He beats me up more then any of the other kids ever did. Soon the goth girl is face to face with me i blink before she speaks " I made a copy of damiens jornal" she hands me a black book "ive only read the first few pages but it has magic on it so whenever damien writes sometheing it will apper in the book" " why are you giving this to me Alley??" I'm acutally clueless of why she gave me the book "Because ive tryed to not make him a popuplar asshole but it didnt work so im hopeing maybe you can" with that she walks away back to her little goth group
Shes hopeing i can change damien? No one could change damien. but im curios so i start reading his jornal throughout the day. One page sticks out to me he had written a while after he became popular. "what am i doing with my life? ive became a complete douchebag my own sister became goth because she knows i cant stan
Sp kyleMy name is Kyle Brofloski Im a nerdy ginger jew i get beat up at school even my own boyfriend beats me he tells me he has to keep up with his reputation at the end of the day i feel like im almost dead. The only person i feel like i can trust is Kenny he is always there for me no matter what sometimes i wonder if i was with kenny it would be better. But im scared of stan going after me so i just stay silent.
Sometimes i wonder if death would be better. I dont talk as much as i used to and i barley wiegh a thing because i dont eat to much anymore. If i did more people would go after me. I'm tired and beat when my mom asks were all the brusies come from i just tell her im a clutz if i told her the truth she would probably start a war and i dont want that happing again. For the life of me i cant stop cutting it makes some of the pain go away for a while so i enojoy it i know it sounds strange but i just want to feel something other then hate but id rather feel pain then nothing at all so
K2 confess chapt 6Moments of silence pass the only sound is my now silent sobs. I look over at Star who has a few tears stroling down her face which is very shocking. I'd never thought i'd see Star crying of all people. Stan notcices she crying and pulls her into a hug. Star freezes.
she ushally does this when she has a vishion. She loosens up in a few secounds and realexs. "Cartman" she mutters Footsteps are heard Stan realses Star and Kenny realeses me. Trent walks down with a wooden bat in his hand. Stars eyes widen but shrink within a few moments. he walks to Stan and knocks him out then star then kenny then myself.......
BEEP BEEP BEEP. ugh what is that anoying sound. BEEP BEEP BEEP. Fuck thats anoying i open my eyes im not in the basment any more im in a stark white room "what the fuck??" all the sudden im in a tackle hug. i look down and see Star Stan and kenny hugging me. " how the hell did we get here??" Star laughs " Cartman found our asses and saved us but we were all passed out so it was dif
Punk!LeviXReader: The Princess and the Punk Ch1
The Princess and the Punk
Second and Sebring
You sat comfortably in your Starbucks chair, sipping away at your [beverage] while scrolling on your Facebook newsfeed on your phone. You worked for a Recording Studio as the talent scout. Basically you would go to stuff like school talent shows or walk around music stores to search for "uprising talent" as your boss described it. It was one heck of a job, and you got to meet a variety of celebrities. Most of them were assholes, even if they seemed down to earth in radio broadcasts and on TV interviews. You'd scoff when you'd hear someone like Petra Ral, a very famous pop singer (who you'd like to mention used auto tune), talk about saving the earth when her car emits more gas into the polluted air than others, and her fancy home uses more energy than Sweden. Oh yes, many times have you had encounters with her and most of them were not pretty.
You looked at your watch and sighed. Locking your phone, you sat bac
Crows chasing cats.
Dave X Reader
The (y/c) haired girl looked around her.
She slightly smiled as nobody was around, walking up to the biggest tree in the garden.
(Y/n) was thinking of eating in the classroom, but as always, it was way too noisy and she couldn’t stand it.
The girl calmly sat close to the tree, opening her lunchbox.
‘Finally, I can have some peace.’
As she was about to take her first bite of her lunch, a very familiar voice spoke up to her.
“Eating by yourself again, (Y/n)?”
The girl sighed and looked at the male beside her with an annoyed look.
“What do you want now, Dave?”
Dave grinned and sat beside (Y/n).
“Well, I was just thinking-“
“I do not want to know. Please go away.”
“C’mon, just hear me out! Anyway, as I was saying…I was thinking…Don’t you think it’s about time the ‘lonely cat’ chases the ‘popular crow’?”
In My Darkest Hour - Levi x ReaderIn My Darkest Hour
Levi x Reader
Warning: this fic contains suicide.
In my hour of need,
Ha, no, you're not there.
It's amazing how things can change in such a short amount of time. For (first), this realization made her stomach churn. Levi, her dear childhood friend, hasn't talked to her ever since he got promoted and became squad leader Lance Corporal Levi. She, knew his real age. She, knew his greatest fears. She, knew things no one else would ever know about Levi because of their past together. And what does he do to her? Forgets her. Like she was never there to begin with. She could kiss afternoon walks and late night talks with him goodbye.
And though, I reached out for you,
Wouldn't lend a hand
Occasionally, (first) would try to wave to catch his attention or try to talk to him. It would usually end with a "tch" or a "get back to work, brat." These words cut deep into (first)'s heart, but she would repress her emotions. Soldiers weren't suppose
Rivaille X Erwin's Sister!Reader-
First SnK/AoT fanfic. I'm sorry if anything is bad or OOC. //bad language is expected.//
"All you had to fucking do Erwin was bring me a flipping horse, but what do you do? You completely forget that you had a sister and left me to walk all the freaking way." You mumbled to yourself as you stomped your way to the scouting legion's head quarters. "Oh-hohoho
Erwin, aren't you going to get it when I get there."
Your brother was none other than Commander Erwin Smith. Yes, you were his little sister. He was supposed to meet you two miles away from the head quarters of the scouting legion, because that was as far as the carriage would take you. But not only that, he was supposed to meet you there at noon. It was already one thirty.
So you decided not to wait and go ahead and make the journey on foot. Sure you were vulnerable on foot, and without any weapons besides your own two fists. But you were so steaming ma
Flushcrush (Troll!Dirk x Troll!Reader)Your name is (f/n) (l/n). You are 6 sweeps old and you have (b/c) blood. You have taken an interest in (hobby 1) and (hobby 2), and you thoroughly enjoy chatting with your friends. Among those friends are Karkat Vantas, Kanaya Maryam, Terezi Pyrope, and the one and only Dirk Strider. You have many other friends, of course, but if you had to say that one of them was your best friend, you would say it was Dirk. He has been with you for nearly your entire life and you not only look up to him, but you also care for him dearly.
At the moment, you are staring at your husktop in shock. Your wide yellow eyes are reflecting the image on your screen as you read and reread the pesterlog displayed before you. You were conversing with Dirk over little things, as per usual, when he suddenly asked you a very unexpected question. Seeing as your answer to this question would change not only your life, but Dirk's life as well, you were carefully thinking over your options to determine what your answer m
Fairy Tale [Dad!Japan X Death!Mum!Reader]
Kiku smiled softly when he dressed up his little 4 years old daughter, Miari in her beloved cherry blossom pink nightdress with blossom print on it. Kiku Honda was a hard working single parent who loved his only daughter more than his own live. He worked hard so he could grant any wish his daughter had. When he was on work he would let her stay at his sister’s home who had children too, who really get along with their little cuisine. But one thing he would do every time. Bringing her to bed and if she wanted to hear a lullaby he would sing some until she would sleep. Or if she wanted to hear a good night- story he would tell her until she would sleep. And at days he wouldn’t have to work the next day, the two would stay in his bed and cuddle and laugh until the both of them would fall asleep. Kiku Honda was many things. Maybe a little bit emotionless, shy, serious, hard working and quiet, but he was a great father.
Tonight was the first night of Kiku’s vacations
Levi x Mental!Reader - Kite Flying - AU
Levi x Mental!Reader AU
A/N: This story is told from third person point of view. Also- make sure to read the description on this one.
Warning: mental illness and disturbing themes. Read at your own risk.
The sky was so blue that it wasn't blue any longer
The sky ascended our spectrum and forged its own definition of blue
Every time that sky goes back into my mind, the colors shift
The blue gets blue-er and the horizon widens
She stared out into her lone room window. It was a beautiful day, not a cloud in the sky. How she wished she could go outside again, but she only got to go outside on Tuesdays, and it always seemed to be raining on a Tuesday. All she yearned to do was think. Think and reflect. It soothed her soul.
The ink spot in that new blue sky was my kite
As I raised it higher into the atmosphere
I felt like I was riding the wind and disappearing into the new blue di
Forward [Daddy!Levi x Mommy!Reader]
(Sorry, Reader-chan. I’m going to temporarily kill you off for this one. XD)
The disapproving whispers of the citizens seeped through the ears of the Scouts as they trudged through the city. From the look of the mud crusted on their foreheads, blood smeared on their necks and faces, the bandages wrapped around various limbs and the pathetic moans of the crippled soldiers from the carts, they knew this expedition failed miserably. They doubted the mere existence of the Scouting Legion altogether. What was the point of sending their own out their own when less than half returned with little to nothing to show for it? No one spoke. All eyes simultaneously gazed in one direction:
It was too painful to look back, to painful to face the death of more friends, to painful to wonder if their sacrifices meant something. Moments like these left them questioning what their “Wings of Freedom” really meant, if they truly believed that were fighting for something tangible o
LeviXReader -alone-The rain beat down on the broken shingles of the scout regiments assigned building Eren Yeager and his Captain Levi sat quietly in the empty mess hall. Eren looked around in worry at the dust that covered almost everything in the room. The cup Petra once used sat on a table a spider crawling up the side going back to its web, Levi hasn't been the same since everyone died when he was alone with Eren instead of him being his strong and emotionless self all he did was sulk in sorrow he held back for so many years. The sadness now so noticeable, Eren could feel it the hidden emotions that slowly began to feel the room from Levi made Eren think 'what if I found someone for Levi?' Now that he thought about it that's exactly what he was going to do.
Eren told me about his idea almost 4 years ago today. I cannot say that I believed he would find anyone, or anything, that could actually cheer me up. Therefore I let him proceed with his actions only to see him fail, but
sp confess chapt.4I feel a pair of arms wrap around me i glance up and see Stan "we're going to make trough this ok??" I just look back down i dont belive this but i nod my head "so are you going to tell me now why you were so upset" im silent for a few moments " i told kenny that i loved him and he yelled at me and told me he could never love for someone like me"
I start to cry just remebering it makes me sob Stan realeses me and sighs. "dont worry ky he'll come around" star starts "just give him some time" I think back to this moring just everything then i remeber star looking nervos "Star did you see this??" "what??" "this moring you look scared did you know this was going to happen??" "yeah i did"
I feel a bit angerd she knew this was gunna happen "why didnt you stop it then!!" I hissed "because of what happens"she stats calmly my eyes narrow at her "what could possibley happen that you let this happen!" before she could reply there is a groan of pain all our head shoot over to look at ke
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